Equinox. The Year Begins Today - Sun into Aries, Mercury direct in Pisces.
How are my wild hearts?
Some mornings you wake up and the light is just... different. Not brighter necessarily, but sharper somehow, like the world remembered it had edges again. You make your coffee and stand at the window and something in your chest that has been held very still for a long time does this small, almost imperceptible thing... it loosens. your body knows, our bodies always know before our minds catch up.
That is today, the threshold.
The Sun enters Aries and Mercury stations direct in Pisces, and I want you to feel that as something happening in your actual life, in the particular texture of your days.
Let me tell you what these past weeks have actually been for us.
Pisces season with Mercury retrograde moving through it... it has been like trying to think underwater…or reaching for a thought you know you have and feeling it dissolve the moment your fingers get close. We are having a conversation and then lying awake afterward wondering if you said what you meant or something that only looked like it from a distance. There has been fog, real fog, the kind that doesn't sit in the air but gets inside our thinking and our sense of direction. It got inside our confidence and what we want and where we are going. And if you have been hard on yourself about that, calling it confusion or weakness or falling behind somehow... I want you to gently put that story down. Because Mercury retrograde in Pisces doesn't break us, it dissolves the stories that were never true enough to hold their shape in deep water.
And there have been so many of those stories, haven't there. The ones that became so familiar we stopped noticing we were telling them. This is just who I am. This is just how things are for me. This is just what I do. The ones we built, maybe a long time ago, to make sense of something that hurt, or to survive something that asked too much, or simply because at some point it felt safer to have a fixed story about ourselves than to stay in the terrifying openness of not quite knowing yet. Pisces took those sentences and held them underwater. And then some of them... didn't survive.
They weren't true enough and didn't have enough of our real selves in them to float. And what's left, what is still standing in us now on the other side of all that fog,knowing that arrived in the murk, our grief that surfaced without warning in the middle of an ordinary Wednesday, the truth you heard in a dream or a song or a look someone gave you that landed somewhere below your ribcage and stayed there...
THAT´s the real thing and it is yours to keep my love.
Mercury stations direct today, and the voice comes back. Slowly at first, because Mercury moves carefully as it finds its footing again, so please, please be gentle with yourself if clarity doesn't arrive fully formed and ready to be acted on immediately. Give it a few days, give the knowing time to become speakable. Most deep truths arrive in their pajamas and need a cup of tea before they can tell you what they mean. But something has organized itself in us during these weeks, something has been quietly composting in the dark into something much more useful than the thing it started as, and it is real, and it is ready, and it has been waiting for exactly this moment to begin looking for language, new, begnning, the door opening to a higher frequency, more abundamt life. And YOUR SO DESERVE IT. You are so WORTHY!
And today, at the exact moment Mercury finds its footing again, the Sun walks through Aries.
I want to stay here for a moment because Aries is not a small thing and I refuse to rush past it. Aries is the first sign, the original fire..soul's memory of itself before it learned it had to earn the right to take up space. And I think about that so much, because most of us, most of us doing this kind of interior work, spend an extraordinary amount of energy managing ourselves in relation to other people's comfort. Making ourselves a little quieter, smaller. more palatable. Arriving at our own lives slightly sideways, apologetic, as though the full unedited version of us might be too much and might cost us something important. We learn this so young and we learn to perform a version of ourselves that is just more acceptable than the real one, and after a while the performance becomes so practiced that we stop noticing it is a performance at all, and start experiencing it as just... who we are.
Aries remembers who we were before the performance!!
The Spring Equinox is today. Day and night in perfect balance, held for one suspended, tender moment... and then the light tips, insists. it grows.
Longer days arriving, the green pushing up through soil that was frozen just a few weeks ago, our bodies leaning forward before our minds have given them permission… this is the energy of Aries season and it is asking for our courage and honesty.
Because here is what I have seen, again and again, in this work and in my own life... we are often extraordinary at the inner work and very, very slow to let it change anything visible. We understand things at a depth that would astonish most people. And then we wait. We get clear, genuinely clear, and then we find seventeen reasons why now is not quite the right moment. We feel the pull of the thing we are actually called toward and then we talk ourselves back to the edge of it and stand there, one foot in and one foot out, for longer than is comfortable to admit. And I say this with so much love because I am not above this, I have spent entire seasons of my life standing in doorways.
Aries is the part of us that is done with doorways, It feels the pulse of the true thing and it moves, trusting, profoundly and sometimes unreasonably, that the path will show itself to someone who is already walking.
Wherever Aries sits in your natal chart is where this ignition is landing most personally. For some of us it is the self, the whole texture of our presence, our body, the way we arrive in our own life. For others it is love, the way we show up in relationship, what we are finally ready to ask for without pre-emptively apologizing for needing it. For others it is work, or home, or the long complicated relationship with our own purpose that keeps almost-arriving. Wherever it lands, there is a beginning available to us now that could only exist because of the fog and the dissolving, because of every challenigng moment in the past weeks when we stayed honest with ourselves even when it was uncomfortable and there was no audience and no reward for it.
That is our soil.
Trust what clarified in the deep water, trust the knowing that arrived before you had language for it. Trust that the small, private, unglamorous choices we made to be more honest with ourselves this winter mattered, because they did, because they do, because THE WORK WE DO IN THE DARK IS ALWAYS THE WORK THAT COUNTS.
Come up now, my loves.
The light is here..
Love you xxx
Tell me what is stirring, what is beginning, what the fog showed you... I really do want to hear.
Inese